Hello Mellow :) alhamdulillah masih diberi peluang untuk bernafas. Hurm, life isn't easy kat tempat orang. I mean, without family, good friends and etc. Sometimes, when we have problems we can't easily tell people cause not all will care right. Maybe they are glad that we have it. That is life anyway.
It has been 3 days here. Hard for me to go on. I miss mom dad, sisters, Acap Mal Hamster and other. I miss the 3 kids, Iman Ziyad n Zaheera.
I am so hopeless without them. Here is the problem I can't face at all. As usual, I don't know what the heck lah dgn sorang perempuan ni kan. I can't even describe how she treats me. I don't blame her 100% cause I treat her bad as well. The thing is, why should this girl tell everyone each thing that happened between her n me, about me. like ya Allah, tak ada keje dah ke nak cerita je kat semua orang. The most I can't accept is, this one day i just got back from Bangi, then dia nak buat muka mcm annoying gila tahap max patu nak ngadu to people that i wasnt talking to her bla bla. Gosh, can you just imagine how childish you are!! All the thing she put the blame on me. Hellooooooo matang sikit boleh tak? pfft.
Now, things are getting worse n worse. Until hal peribadi pun nak masuk campurkan dalam kerja. Come on, we are not a kid anymore lah. Though kau nak buat aku hot mcmana pun, be professional sikit boleh tak? Tak perlu lah nak jaja cerita aku satu kampung, nak mengadu semua pasal aku, nak buruk2kan aku. Allah knows everything. He knows each thing you did. Matang sikit! Jgn jadi bebudak sangat. Dah besar kan, dah tahu mana baik buruk. Halal haram semua. Think wisely before you did something. Cause it might hurt you back.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
hello 2011
how to start yea. well, so much thing happened to me last few weeks. good things and bad things too.
starts with good thing lah. im so thankful to Allah for hidayah yang diberi. Im more close to Islam now and starts learning about it. alhamdulillah, the last day of 2010, i started wearing hijab. that was the best moment in my life. while i feel lost, i know im not alone. Allah is always with me. and i have good friends that can guide me to jalan yang lurus. thank you Aziyani, Khadijah, Khairunisa, Asyraf dan lain2 yg byk membantu :) may Allah bless you guys, inshaAllah.
bad thing. hurm, sangat banyak! dalam mencari erti Islam yg sebenar, sgt byk dugaan yg i have to face it. first, surrounding. family and friends. ya Allah, sungguh berat ujian yg Syada face sekarang. kawan yg tidak menjaga aib kawannya, family yg kurang beri supports and yg plg besar is hasutan hasutan syaitan. i know, i have to be strong. but still cant find a way to get the strength.
i pray for my friends supaya mereka dijauhkan daripada things yg tidak baik. terutamanya some of my friends that hurts me lot. i forgive them. and, bila dah kenal islam lebih dalam, i can feel true love. but astagfirullah, i fell in love with the wrong person. but its okay, i pray for his happiness. bukan jodoh kami :') please somebody help me. to gives me supports and spirits to moves on this life, to go through this hard time.
anyway, im so happy with my new life. lebih tenang dari dulu. alhamdulillah :)
starts with good thing lah. im so thankful to Allah for hidayah yang diberi. Im more close to Islam now and starts learning about it. alhamdulillah, the last day of 2010, i started wearing hijab. that was the best moment in my life. while i feel lost, i know im not alone. Allah is always with me. and i have good friends that can guide me to jalan yang lurus. thank you Aziyani, Khadijah, Khairunisa, Asyraf dan lain2 yg byk membantu :) may Allah bless you guys, inshaAllah.
bad thing. hurm, sangat banyak! dalam mencari erti Islam yg sebenar, sgt byk dugaan yg i have to face it. first, surrounding. family and friends. ya Allah, sungguh berat ujian yg Syada face sekarang. kawan yg tidak menjaga aib kawannya, family yg kurang beri supports and yg plg besar is hasutan hasutan syaitan. i know, i have to be strong. but still cant find a way to get the strength.
i pray for my friends supaya mereka dijauhkan daripada things yg tidak baik. terutamanya some of my friends that hurts me lot. i forgive them. and, bila dah kenal islam lebih dalam, i can feel true love. but astagfirullah, i fell in love with the wrong person. but its okay, i pray for his happiness. bukan jodoh kami :') please somebody help me. to gives me supports and spirits to moves on this life, to go through this hard time.
anyway, im so happy with my new life. lebih tenang dari dulu. alhamdulillah :)
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